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Holy Cannoli

Holy Cannoli

By Tony Gapastione

This is Holy Cannoli. This podcast is all about MAKING SENSE OF life, who we are and why we’re here. Life is Sacred and life is strange. We can experience The Divine, HOLY, transcendent in the most random ways, random locations and through the most random people. This podcast is about you, it's about me, it's about film and TV, it's our world. It’s about God. It's about finding the sacred in the strange. Subscribe and settle in for a listen every Monday Hosted by Bay Area husband and wife Tony and Wendy Gapastione with special guests.
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36: Creating art & culture: special chat with Matt Nightingale

Holy CannoliFeb 21, 2019

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37:12
68: What the heck, God?! Really?? A Christmas Wonder.
Dec 26, 202233:41
67: Jay Bakker
Nov 19, 202254:50
66: Gratitude

66: Gratitude

Who inspires gratitude in you? Why not tell them so. 

Got ideas for me to chat about? email me at podcast@bravemaker.com

Want to support me and my work? 

Go to https://bravemaker.com/donate/

and become a tax deductible donor. You can give any amount it all helps. $5, $25, $100 a month supports me, my family and this ministry of storytelling and encouragement. 

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https://www.instagram.com/tonygapastione/



Nov 15, 202225:23
65: What makes ministry?
Oct 08, 202255:17
64: Tick..Tick...BOOM!

64: Tick..Tick...BOOM!

Tony dissects and RELATES to Jonathon Larson of Tick...Tick...Boom!

Sep 19, 202238:22
63: TONY RETURNS after a long hiatus with SAINT VINCENT
Sep 05, 202240:52
62: 33 Days FILM (The true story of pastor Roger Huang)
Dec 09, 202001:09:36
61: Bible talk # 3 (Confessions of a pastor Part 8)

61: Bible talk # 3 (Confessions of a pastor Part 8)

Make sure you listen to episodes 56 and 59 before you listen to this one so you are all caught up as Tony talks about his thoughts on the Bible. 

Sep 14, 202039:16
60: Miscarriages, infertility and adoption with MFT Cathie Quillet
May 07, 202040:19
59: Confessions of a pastor (Part 7): More Bible talk + Covid-19 Virus thoughts

59: Confessions of a pastor (Part 7): More Bible talk + Covid-19 Virus thoughts

Tony is back. 



Mar 16, 202051:13
58: Love + Cupcakes in Las Vegas with Joy Hoover
Jan 24, 202049:46
57: Confessions of a WOMAN Pastor: Jenny Warner of Valley Pres in Portola Valley
Nov 20, 201949:05
56: Confessions of a Pastor (Part 5): Is everything in the Bible really intended by God?

56: Confessions of a Pastor (Part 5): Is everything in the Bible really intended by God?

Tony shares a message with his church, THE QUEST in Novato California. 

Is the Bible all divinely inspired by God or is it human interpretation. 



Nov 05, 201952:25
55: Confessions of a Pastor (part 4) with Jelani Greenidge on race + multi-ethnic worship music
Oct 04, 201901:11:14
54: Confessions of a Pastor (Part 3): Sunday School + Communion

54: Confessions of a Pastor (Part 3): Sunday School + Communion

Tony + Wendy COMMUNE on the present issues. 

Sep 22, 201949:09
53: Confessions of a Pastor (Part 2)

53: Confessions of a Pastor (Part 2)

It's midnight and Wendy wanted to record an episode, a podcast on pastoral confessions. Uh.... Why not? What could go wrong?

Well, Tony could talk about his BUTT CHEEKS (again) and could offend people with his opinions on SPEAKING IN TONGUES,. So there's that. 

Oh, well. It's real, opinionated and the stories of just one pastor. But he still loves Jesus, the Bible and the church (no matter what anyone says!). 

We can't speak for everyone's experience but hope in some way you can relate... and laugh. 

Anyone have any church stories that you want to share? Looking for all sorts of topics: Money, relationships, Sunday School, sermons, awkward interactions. If that's you...give us an email podcast@bravemaker.com

Never forget God loves you. He...She does! (And we know that might offend someone, but...just think about it. 

And please subscribe, rate us and share with a friend. 

Sep 07, 201946:38
52: Confessions of a Pastor (Part 1)

52: Confessions of a Pastor (Part 1)

Let's do this.  Tony starts off a new series of conversations, or CONFESSIONS: sharing real issues, anecdotes, doubts, questions and frustrations about being a pastor.


Submit your ideas, questions, and stories. 

Aug 28, 201917:54
51: Treasures in Darkness: Angie Ibarra of Generations United
Aug 19, 201945:12
50: Capital OK: brOKen.

50: Capital OK: brOKen.

Nifty Fifty. 

Tony talks about his teeth, broken systems and why we need to keep seeking JUSTICE. 

Jul 25, 201924:60
49: Tony has a new QUEST

49: Tony has a new QUEST

Big news! I (Tony) took a part time job serving as a pastor with my friend MATT NIGHTINGALE. 

http://www.questnovato.com/

Two days a week I'll be driving up north over the Golden Gate Bridge to serve as a co-pastor.


This is Matt's spiritual direction community:

https://www.thechristiancloset.com

Jul 09, 201937:18
48: Unity costs us.

48: Unity costs us.

Are we willing to sacrifice what we might lose? 


Message by Tony Gapastione from Trinity Presbyterian Church in San Carlos. June 30th, 2019.

Jul 01, 201936:29
47: Fatherhood
Jun 25, 201939:45
46: FILM FEST FACTS + nothing but the FACTS
May 20, 201926:15
45: Life + Death Pontificating with Tony

45: Life + Death Pontificating with Tony

It's been a wild week to think about. 

May 08, 201914:03
44: Sympathy for Judas, Thanos and that annoying jerk in your life

44: Sympathy for Judas, Thanos and that annoying jerk in your life

This one is all me. Solo. (Tony).

I just saw AVENGERS End Game last night. No spoilers here but I did have my own personal encounter with someone who seemed to be my personal Thanos for thirty minutes. Why did I let a jerk get the best of me? How can I learn to let go of the toxicity spewed out by others? 

These words that came from the cross, from a humble man being murdered. 

"Father forgive them for they do not know what they are doing."

Life Changing. 

Villainizing people is easy but not letting them affect you is not. 

But even villains are complex humans with fears and pains. And most times it's not about you. 

--Tony

Apr 29, 201915:51
43: Judy Peterson is walking with Jesus and loving like Jesus
Apr 23, 201901:08:02
42: Church Clarity with Sarah Ngu + George Mekhail
Apr 16, 201934:21
41: Garrett Brown: Scripture & Stanford
Apr 07, 201946:58
40: Becoming ANTI-Racist with Andre Henry

40: Becoming ANTI-Racist with Andre Henry

Anti-racist educator, writer, and activist ANDRE HENRY joins the HOLY CANNOLI PODCAST. 

Find him on Instagram: 

https://www.instagram.com/theandrehenry/

Dig in, listen and get activated. 

Want to sign up for Andre's HOPE AND HARD PILLS? 

http://www.andrerhenry.com/

Want to become a patron of his work and financially support him? 

https://www.patreon.com/hopeandhardpills

Mar 27, 201956:26
39: What needs to end? or die?

39: What needs to end? or die?

Questions we hate to ask--but--What needs to end? or die? Who needs to be fired? 

Dr. Henry Cloud's book NECESSARY ENDINGS inspired this 10 minute podcast reflection by Tony. 


@tonygapastione

Mar 18, 201909:56
38: Corinne Oestreich is back (& she meet the Back Street Boys)
Mar 11, 201946:31
37: The Naked Pastor: Graffiti Artist on the Walls of Religion
Mar 04, 201954:12
36: Creating art & culture: special chat with Matt Nightingale

36: Creating art & culture: special chat with Matt Nightingale

We normally put out our episodes on Monday but since our friend Matt is in town for the Friday 2/22/19 BraveMaker event we recorded a conversation on creating art, church (of course) and culture. 

http://mattnightingale.com/

https://www.instagram.com/mattnightingale/

Enjoy!

Feb 21, 201937:12
35: The Color of Life with Cara Meredith
Feb 18, 201947:12
34: Tony's reflections on leadership

34: Tony's reflections on leadership

After a week of being at Sundance for a week, Tony's feeling a bit nostalgic and reflective around what it means to be a leader (and maybe a bit introspective on the last nine months).  

Feb 11, 201932:33
33: Lamonte found (himself in) his biological family

33: Lamonte found (himself in) his biological family

From the snowy mountains of Park City, Utah, home of the Sundance Film Festival comes the story of  Lamonte White. Knowing he had been adopted from six months old, Lamonte was curious to learn more about this biological family in his adult life.

So he filed some official paperwork with the State of New Jersey where he lived. He quickly found himself in a new story discovering a whole family that was closer than he ever could have imagined. 

Something very similar was in a recent documentary called: Three Identical Strangers. (Lamonte was adopted from the SAME agency)  https://www.yahoo.com/entertainment/three-identical-strangers-most-watched-200947933.html


Family is a sacred and strange thing but this story reminds us that DNA is not the only thing that ties us together, but it does help define us.


Follow Lamonte, AKA Monty on IG

https://www.instagram.com/montyshots/

Take a look at his company 

https://kumbregear.com/

Feb 04, 201958:43
32: Dave Diller is RENOVATING

32: Dave Diller is RENOVATING

He was a PAID pastor, now... he's not paid anymore. He's STILL a pastor (at large) and figuring things out about what it means to be a person of faith and a part of the church (or not), like us all. He's got a lot to say and it's fun. Artist, friend, co-owner of our turtle, CHIP in college. 

Meet my friend from college Dave Diller. 

https://www.instagram.com/davidcdiller/

Jan 28, 201959:54
31: Dan Collison: Exclude or Be Excluded?

31: Dan Collison: Exclude or Be Excluded?

Dan is a pastor, teacher and community leader in Minneapolis Minnesota. Dan seeks to affirm and include the LGBTQ+ community in his congregation despite pressure and threats that he could lose ministry credentials, his reputation and maybe even the church in which he leads. Take a listen with an open mind and heart. 

Links to give you more background on Dan.


https://www.linkedin.com/in/dan-collison-47b0087/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=8&v=e2yCPBcARy8

http://mf4i.org/rev-dan-collison-suspended/


BraveMaker LGBTQ+ film, music and live podcast event

https://bravemakerfeb2019.eventbrite.com

Jan 21, 201901:03:35
30: Values not belief statements with Kevin Neuner

30: Values not belief statements with Kevin Neuner

Our last conversation of the year is with a pastor, church leader and a theologian who loves the scriptures. The way he thinks about following Jesus will challenge, inspire and potentially rattle you. Take a risk and listen to Kevin Neuner of Palo Alto's Spark Church and see how you might also live the sacred and strange way of living by values instead of belief statements. 

https://www.facebook.com/kevin.neuner

https://www.spark.church/

Sunday March 10th, 2019 event:

https://www.spark.church/sexualityscripturesoul

Dec 26, 201801:12:27
29: The BraveMaker crossover episode

29: The BraveMaker crossover episode

Hope you love film!
In this podcast you'll get a sneak peak of a whole new podcast where we interview creators and talk about film and all things creative!

Dec 18, 201801:22:38
28: Let the immigrants rise. Interview with Estefania Hermosillo
Dec 10, 201847:32
27: Native American, Advocate and surrogate: Corrine Oestreich
Dec 03, 201849:19
26: It's the most wonderful time (for SEASON 2) of the year

26: It's the most wonderful time (for SEASON 2) of the year

If you have a STRANGE/SACRED holiday STORY to share email: podcast@bravemaker.com or shoot us a message on the Facebook page and we'll put it to music and/or Tony will dramatically re-enact it on the podcast.

www.facebook.com/holycannolipodcast/

Remember us for your GIVING TUESDAY donations and end of year tax deductible contributions
www.bravemaker.com/donate

Wendy recommends podcaster Jen Hatmaker's "favorite things" if you want ideas for good gifts that are ethically sourced.
jenhatmaker.com/fall-and-holidays-favorite-things-gift-guide.htm

jenhatmaker.com/episode-01-2018-holiday-gift-guide
Nov 26, 201825:53
25: Laura Turner is making friends with Anxiety

25: Laura Turner is making friends with Anxiety

She's known as many things. Writer, wife, new mom...but in some circles she's known as a "christian culture enthusiast" . Laura Turner made her way in the world as a pastor's kid and somehow survived. Her parents are John and Nancy Ortberg and she is the oldest child of three. She's faced crippling anxiety most of her life which has become a major cornerstone to her writing. She endeavors to make the often shameful and secretive pains we hide, like the difficult journey to motherhood, stories in which her readers can relate. With grace, humility and candor she shares her sacred and strange life of prank calling from her Dad's mega-church office, crying in the car with her newborn son Chance, celebrating a sister who became a brother, and her new fave binge-worthy Netflix show who's title will make you giggle. Episode 25 is a gift that will keep on giving. Her Twitter https://twitter.com/lkoturner The Why Christian conference in San Francisco April 2019 https://whychristian.net/ On her miscarriage: https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/lauraturner/i-was-pregnant-and-then-i-wasnt Other books referenced in our conversation Henri Nouwen https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0046A9JA2/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1 Brother Lawrence https://www.amazon.com/Practice-Presence-God-Brother-Lawrence-ebook/dp/B002BH3NN6/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1542616305&sr=1-1&keywords=practicing+the+presence+of+god+by+brother+lawrence http://www.lkoturner.com/ (Oh and JERKY BOYS is the prank calling guys that I was referencing).
Nov 19, 201801:09:45
24: Q+A with Tony + Wendy
Nov 12, 201801:05:16
23: GIVE US THAT BREAD (Tony Speaks)

23: GIVE US THAT BREAD (Tony Speaks)

Jesus taught his disciples to pray: Give us this day our DAILY BREAD. What if it meant more than just asking God for our needs and waiting for provision to fall from the sky? What if it included asking and seeking provision from each other? Think about it and give us your thoughts on the Facebook page.
www.facebook.com/holycannolipodcast

Also---apologies in advance--Tony sings on this episode...and he sings CHER ...but it's Jack from Will and Grace's fault. Listen for the story.

If you want to donate financially or through our AMAZON wishlist
click here:
www.bravemaker.com/donate

If you have AIRLINE or CAR RENTAL MILES to donate to get Tony to Sundance Film Fest in January 2019 email: tony@bravemaker.com
Your generosity would be greatly appreciated.
Nov 05, 201840:55
22: Anjelah Johnson is MORE THAN funny

22: Anjelah Johnson is MORE THAN funny

She's known as a comedienne who makes people laugh but she has a heart for justice and truth...and wants you to know there are TWO THINGS YOU SHOULD NEVER DO if you meet her at one of her shows. So watch out or she will CUT you...but she LOVES Jesus so it's all good. Follow her on her socials https://twitter.com/anjelahjohnson https://www.instagram.com/anjelahjohnson/ Get tickets to her shows & check out her tour and swag here: http://anjelah.com/ Watch NEIGHBOR on Amazon and see Anjelah in Tony's short film. http://www.neighborfilm.com/ Oh and don't forget to follow HER DOG https://www.instagram.com/banzobeanreyes/
Oct 29, 201849:17
21: Another Christian Coming Out story with Jerron Hess
Oct 22, 201801:07:06
20: 5 Questions about Homosexuality with Matt Nighingale

20: 5 Questions about Homosexuality with Matt Nighingale

Friend of the podcast MATT NIGHTINGALE (Ep 9 & 10) received a lot of feedback and questions from his story. He gracefully responded to one earnest podcast listener's inquiries with a personal audio recording and gave us permission to share it here! Here are the 5: 1) Is homosexuality a sin? How do we know? 2) Can we share some resources? 3) Since it appears that God's design is heterosexuality (penises and vaginas, babies, etc.), how is homosexuality OK? 4) How can an ally be an ally without seeming to support all the brokenness in the LGBTQ community too? 5) How does early childhood trauma play into the development of homosexuality? Follow Matt on Socials www.twitter.com/mattnightingale www.instagram.com/mattnightingale Rescources http://www.theliturgists.com/podcast/2015/5/18/episode-20-lgbtq https://www.amazon.com/Changing-Our-Mind-Definitive-Christians/dp/1942011849 Matt's Message with THE QUEST https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oVehPfU4pN8 https://www.qchristian.org/ https://www.reformationproject.org/ https://www.bluebabiespink.com/ http://mf4i.org/resources/bibliography/
Oct 15, 201833:34
19: More thoughts on suicide & social media aggression with Tony & Wendy

19: More thoughts on suicide & social media aggression with Tony & Wendy

The whole conversation started when Wendy asked me (Tony) why I post certain things on social media and we ended up just talking and recording the whole thing as a podcast! In addition we had a great time digesting this week's craziness in our country (Supreme Court nomination) as well as responding to last week's episode 18 on suicide.
Oct 08, 201841:43